Gastronomical Clock

Starting to think my life or at least individual days revolve around eating. I am no lover of food or really quality food. If it's not terrible, I can probably eat it, unless it's like vegetables, but even for those I am breeding a tolerance. And it's not like I am just enamored with eating lots of great beautiful food either.

True, I like looking at food. Pretty food is pleasing to my eyes, especially when it looks good. But food itself is like, okay, it's a thing I need to ingest on a regular basis to survive and feed the hungry cells that make this body that is supposedly me. Not really too romanticized w/ the idea of actually eating; in fact, sometimes it's just disappointing when I eat something that looks good and it's bad (or it's oatmeal-raisin cookies instead of choc. chip).

But lately, perhaps due to the less-than-abundant sources of nourishing food (Indian food makes me poop sad poops so I avoid it a lot), I've started to notice how much I've taken food for granted. I mean, not that the food here is awful, it's pretty okay, but there are these long periods of time between already oddly-timed meals (see most Indian people eat what to the Western world is "late" as in at least 9 PM but my family's often had dinner at 11, occasionally even past midnight, thought that's the exception...) and even though I wake up pretty late, it always seems a long time till I eat. Like, I'll wake up, and then my mom'll make toast because we don't have a toaster and they're this complicated method of toasting the bread that is beyond me who can only make ramen and use toasters or waffle irons. And that takes a while, and then I eat and then I get hungry and wait for lunch. Then I eat lunch, which quality-wise is pretty okay, and filling for a while. Dinner seems to take forever though, but even after I eat dinner, owing to my habit of staying up later, I get hungry then too.

And during these bouts of hunger I really just wander around the house or read or do some of the things I can do on my laptop with tortoise-speed internet, contemplating my hunger.

It's just everything seems a) so little and b) not that appetizing, and it kind of disappoints me because if I can't depend on my expectation of satisfying my hunger with a delicious dinner or something, then what can I depend on? I mean the thought of having to eat like instant noodles or something and then wait hours only to eat some bland shrimp curry thing at the end of the day, it's not one to really keep me going.

I might just be a spoiled kid used to living in a pretty well-off country (by the way, none of this really has to do with like not-poor people's unavailability of commodities, I mean, you can get stuff pretty easily, it's just that mostly I'm lazy and need stuff given to me or something) but I realize that I'm just so used to having a given amount of fairly good meals a day, with accessibility to pretty good snacks in between. And these are things I count on, depend on, as a sign of regularity and almost ritual in my day. It's this constant, that I just expect always to be there.

Anyway, only a week until I get back to pretty good dorm food (oh and airplane food, esp. going to/from India, the worst).