not specifically right now, but IN GENERAL, because I'm like, "I could be doing SUCH cooler things right now! Why am I wasting all my time so shittily?" and I know the ~now~ is okay, and I should be MORE than satisfied with what I have, because Spaghetti knows I am, but I feel like there's so much missing, so much that is being replaced with smelly old shit that I don't care for, and you have to admit, smelly shit far overcomes the nice smell of flowers and whatever crap is Nice, OR, worse, you get that bad-as-hell mix between aesthetic1 and unpleasant smells, which is just gross, which is where I am, now, in that gross in between2 of GOOD and BAD things, where you just feel awful and bad and lonely and gloomy and sometimes happy and excited and great but can never ignore the smell of the pee of a two-year-old in the vents, I mean, once that pee is in the vent, goddamn, it's going to circulate around the whole house and you just want to leave!
1: I think "aesthetic" can be used to describe non-visual pleasantness, but not sure
2: oh god I hate in betweens. purgatory would fucking suck.
ppa: Interestingly enough, this seems to be the effect, the converse, the flipside of the "goddamn I am immortal and unstoppable and awesome" posts. It's like, you're on unlimited momentum until you hit a wall that you can't even get past, and then once you stop you're inert again.
Monday, March 15, 2010
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I'm assuming you didn't sleep last night....
stop doing that. peeing in a vent is not a metaphor. the shark is literal.
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